My Traveling Shoes

Done found myself a new pair of travelin' shoes to wear on this leg of my journey. Handmade to fit and suit me just right, supportin' and comfortin' me each step of the way.They are wild and colorful as I chose them to be, they suit my personality.
I've traveled so many miles in shoes that someone else bought for me, plain, poorly fitted, worn, second hand, hand me downs. Ohh, they hurt my feet and took me places that I didn't need to go, places that I didn't want to go. For many years I put them on. I was told it was my duty, but my heart was heavy and my cares so many.
Done found myself a new pair of travelin' shoes to wear on this leg of my journey. Handmade to fit and suit me just right, supportin' and comfortin' me each step of the way.They are wild and colorful as I chose them to be, they suit my personality. I bought these shoes. I own these shoes. They are mine.
by Jeanne leigh...copyrighted...2007


Saturday, August 21, 2010

To Stand in the Moment

Lately I have struggled with “letting go” of situations where I obviously have no control over how someone thinks, feels about or even perceives me or those that I love the most. When there is some kind of upset, I feel a bit of a wound and struggle in wanting to “fix” the situation or make it better in some way. Life’s experience has taught and is teaching me that sometimes its best just to “Let it go.” So what if I’m misunderstood, or disliked or gossiped about or even rejected. I believe God is calling me to stand on my own two feet, be who I truly am…the best that I can be and then trust God that this is enough. It is exhausting living the other way. I know because I did it for many years. These survival skills I learned as the child of an alcoholic...the fixing, rescuing, and becoming a chameleon to please others was all about keeping myself and others safe, accepted and so I thought loved. I know now that often those folks were loving someone else, not the real me that was hiding in fear.
I came up with a saying a few years ago, “I’d rather be hated for who I truly am, then loved for who I truly am not". An acquaintance of mine named Moe told me once, “Moe is not for everyone.” That comment, so simple just shot straight to my heart. So true. “Jeanne is not for everyone.” And that is okay. My strongest desire these days is to live in the moment, to deepen my walk with God, to know myself and be myself and seek to live peace and love in my little corner of the world. This is enough for me.

I want to share this devotion from a book called, RADICAL GRACE: DAILY MEDITATIONS by Richard Rohr. This devotion is titled, THE ‘THIS-NESS’ OF THINGS        

I believe with all my heart that creation is already redemption. That’s good Genesis theology, that’s good Franciscan theology. Already in the act of creation, God has named you. Your “you-ness” is written in the core of your being. The Franciscan philosopher Duns Scotus called the “this-ness” (haecceity, in Latin) of things. He said that God only created individuals, not genus species. God created you as you, in your unique “this-ness.”

Spiritual life is a matter of becoming who you truly are. It’s not becoming Catherine of Siena, or some other saint, but who you are. It sounds easy enough, but being who you truly are is work, courage, and faith.

In some ways religious people are the hardest people to work with--they’re so addicted to judgments that they can’t let reality be. Maybe that’s why Jesus said not to judge. We’ve got a lot to learn from creation spirituality, Native American spirituality and Franciscan spirituality, in terms of letting creation, nature, earth--what is--speak to us. We religious people come on with our predetermined conclusions, Bible quotes and dogmas--all so that we don’t have to receive the moment as it is. For some reason it is easier to hold opinions than to just be aware and awakened.

I love this and I strongly feel this call. To Stand and live in each moment truly as myself seeking to deepen my life with God, myself and others. Living in this moment. For this moment is all we truly have. PEACE, Jeanne

Saturday, August 14, 2010

Grandpa Hill

It is amazing how people that you might interact with for just a few days can have a profound effect on your life. This is a picture of my maternal grandmother's fourth husband whom I knew for only a few days as Grandpa Hill. Grandpa Hill was one of those important people for me. He had raised four daughters who were grown when I met him. He obviously loved his daughters very much. Grandpa Hill was visiting at my home for a few days and he bought me the book Black Beauty. No one in my family was a reader and no one had ever read to me. He invited me to hear the story of Black Beauty, putting me on his lap and reading each day until we finished the book. He was a quiet man, but very loving and gentle. I remember he loved smoking big cigars and wore suspenders every day. Grandpa Hill's kindness touched me deeply and I cherish that memory. I never saw him again.

It is powerful the postive effect we can have on those around us by simple acts of kindness. Today as I am reminded of this experience I am motivated to seek to be that kind of person. How are we effecting those we interact with daily? A good question to ask ourselves. Peace, Jeanne

Thursday, August 12, 2010

O God of light, from whom all life flows, may we glimpse the shinings of your presence in all things. In the darkness of our world, in places of fear and terrible wrong, and in the darknesses of our own lives, in times of confusion and doubt, may we glimpse the shinings of your life-giving presence.

~Celtic Treasure Daily Scriptures and Prayer by J. Philip Newell

I love this book and this particular little prayer which I read this morning. So much of what goes on in our lives can seem so overwhelming. This prayer helps me have hope and moves me to trust and look a bit closer and deeper at all of the life around me. ~Jeanne

Sunday, August 8, 2010


There is a quote by Anne Lamott that I came across the other day. I just loved it and shared it on my Facebook. She says, "Laughter is carbonated holiness." I love that. Laughter has always seemed magical, mysterious, wholesome, wonderful, healing, freeing and now holy.

I went through a period of my life where I found that my laughing was getting pretty scarce. I even wondered what was happening to me. Have a lost my sense of humor? I've done a lot of laughing in my life. So, I began to pray and think about this. How could I lighten up? How could I be more open to seeing and experiencing the funny side of things? As I became more open and realized what a precious gift our sense of humor is, well I found myself laughing more.

I have to say that I love having one of those deep belly laughs where you hurt, you laugh so hard. This is something you can't fake or make happen and that is the beauty of it. What a treasure those times are. Then there is a laughing til you cry or laughing while you cry. Two very different experiences. Here are some quotes about laughter:
The human race has only one really effective weapon and that is laughter.” Mark Twain quotes (American Humorist, Writer and Lecturer. 1835-1910)

God is a comedian, playing to an audience too afraid to laugh.”
~Voltaire quotes (French Philosopher and Writer. One of the greatest of all French authors, 1694-1778)

“Perhaps I know best why it is man alone who laughs; he alone suffers so deeply that he had to invent laughter.”
~Friedrich Nietzsche quotes (German classical Scholar, Philosopher and Critic of culture, 1844-1900.)

“I believe that imagination is stronger than knowledge - myth is more potent than history - dreams are more powerful than facts - hope always triumphs over experience - laughter is the cure for grief - love is stronger than death.”   ~Robert Fulghum quotes

“The person who knows how to laugh at himself will never cease to be amused.”
~ Shirley MacLaine quotes (Outspoken American actress and dancer, b.1934)

"Laughter is the closest distance between two people.”
~Victor Borge quotes (Danish born American Comedian and Pianist, 1909-2000)

“What soap is to the body, laughter is to the soul.”   ~Yiddish Proverb quotes

"Laughter is a tranquilizer with no side effects.”  ~ Arnold H. Glasgow quotes

"Against the assault of laughter nothing can stand.”  ~ Mark Twain quotes (American Humorist, Writer and Lecturer. 1835-1910)

“Laughter is the brush that sweeps away the cobwebs of your heart.”
~ Mort Walker

"Laugh at yourself, but don't ever aim your doubt at yourself. Be bold. When you embark for strange places, don't leave any of yourself safely on shore. Have the nerve to go into unexplored territory.”
~ Alan Alda quotes (American actor, b.1936)

All of these quotes are from

May we all continue to be open to seeing the lighter side of life and open to experiencing the healing powers of laughter. Peace, Jeanne